Uhmmm.....Lets be friends again.

Lets see. Today I feel better because i talked to bg and now we are back to being happy.....for now. Ha. Today I didn't do much. I mainly feel bad about what I ate today. Not only did I not go to the gym, but I had fries for lunch, pizza for dinner, a steak hoagie for evening, and a snickers ice cream for late late night. Woof. I'm trying to keep my eyes on the prize. Losing that 20 lbs is not going to be easy. But I just gotta buckle down. Be strong right? Tomorrow I will start gymning. I am hoping to get my exercise videos back by monday so that I can start doing them in my room..I think that will definetly help the most. Until then..i'll do the gym thing and hope for the best.

Today I feel happy because although I didn't do anything progressive as far as my weight loss..I did do other things that made me happy:) I finally washed my hair after about 3 weeks. Yuck. I'll try to keep it up from now on. I also looked up auditions for theatre and looked up headshots. I ended up finding someone I really like, but she costs $950! I really want to work with her though. I'm thinking...these headshots should last me for atleast 4-5 years. Since i'm coming out into the theatre world, I wanna come full force you know? If I do these headshots, I definetly have to be 20lbs lighter. I want to do this right.

I'm so scared to grow up. I just look at myself compared to the other majors and im just not sure if i'm cut out for it. If only it were easier and I could just land a job in the theatre. I would be ecstatic and happy forever. But it just doesn't get that easy. So I guess I gotta just keep my hopes up and do what I gotta do! Until next time......I'm really liking this everyday blogging thing. It feels good to get the little shit offdashoulda..nah mean?