A new revelation...

I'm trying to see my future...but at this point it is just way too cloudy to see anything promising. I'm hoping to revive my spirit this year. Thats the only resolution that makes any sort of sense for me. What am I going to do? Where am I going to go? I always wanted these questions to come out of sweet anticipation and excitement for beginning a new part of my life. But right now, its simply out of frustration and helplessness. I know what I want to do. But the question lies if i DARE to do it. Despite everything against me.....can i do it? I know i want to...but is it really possible? (Closes her eyes and breathes) I know I can finish school. I know I can graduate on time. And I know that i can find a place...I know I can lose the weight...I know I can land a theatre job. I know I can blow them out of the park. I know I can be THE BEST. I can see myself doing it. I dream it everyday.

But can I do it with a baby?