"When Happiness Does not Come to You..Create it Yourself"

So lets review my October's PATIENCE plea.

Patience is the key. I have realized that as a youngin' I've lived without it for waay too long. During this month of trying to keep myself at a miserable rate in which I can wait....has been difficult. There are few times in which I have failed...and many times in which I have succeeded. What I have learned is that patience allows for me to let things boil over. Its better for me to walk away or wait, because sometimes..trying to deal with a situation immediately can only result in disaster. Especially for this hot tempered gyal.

My only problem with patience...it seems..is fear of letting things go for too long. Or even fear for letting time pass by...without life. I'm sure this needs more explaining. With the way life is going right now.. I am physically alone. There aren't much people that I can visit or turn to for company...And the few that there are..aren't available or aren't the best choice. Much of these days are filled with getting up, making breakfast, going to work, coming home and watching late-night tv. Not many people to call or talk to. My patience is helpful for it allows me to get through the day...but fear arises if my day will continually consist of waiting for the next few weeks to come to go out of town or go to the movies. Its a little rough. But i'm learning..i guess.