So uh...No COunselor

Since i can't meet with my counselor. I guess i'll just write whats on my mind today. So, after much thought over the past 2 weeks, I have officially decided to END my theater career. Okay, maybe i'm being dramatic. Ending is so final, and I'm not sure if once I get out there if I'll want to start it again. So, i'm taking a step away from theater. I'm just finding that its not for me anymore, and my passion is slowly deteriorating. Now, this may be for several reasons, one being that I'm just fed up with this school. But my intuitions are, that as much as this school kills me, its probably not too far off from the real world.
The same old issues that I face here as a Black Theater Major, will most likely be doubled when I get into the "REAL" world. And, i'm just certain that I can't handle it. I wont say i don't have the talent or the drive, but I definetly don't have the balls. Too bad. I always thought I was street saavy and shit. Better luck next time!
What I want more than anything is to have a place of my own. A steady job that gives me steady money. And a big bed to sleep in.
This is my goal right now. And i'm pretty happy with it.
I've dreaded being a quitter my whole life. I'm going to try to not be, but I just don't know.