entrapped in jealousy

i'm like a ticking time bomb. You never kon w when my countdown begins, but when its time.. i explode.. like crazy!

Why am I so jealous? Its like a curse. Something that I just can't stop. I blame it on my sign...being a Taurus ain't easy! LOL. But for me, that astrology stuff is just for fun...i'm finding more and more that I am entrapped in jealousy. I can't let go of it. And I really wish I could.

I'm not going to tell the stories..cause in the end they'll just feel like petty, high school shyt. But in any case..i really wish I could shake this jealousy thing off. I hate feeling it, I hate submitting to it, I hate who I am when it overtakes me. I'm just a different person...ready and set to knock off anyone who gets in my way.

The worst part is getting out of it. When it finally wears off...I have to figure out how to clean up the mess that I created when I was in it. People are all distant from me because I gave them the evil eye and shit.

Its not cool. Not at all.