One Day...(happy 21st)

I imagine that one day I am going to give up on wining and crying over my looks and my weight, making it seem as if i'm falling in a deep depression when in fact..there are children dying from starvation overseas. I imagine that one day, i'm going to stop bitching about my school work, when i remember that many of my people before me, never got the chance to go...instead..they were forced, threatened even..to not go to college. I imagine one day, that I am going to stop putting up a wall against love, when there are so many who died too young, or who grew too old, without even experience true love.

It seems as if i'm thoroughly blessed, but even then, i'm no where near happy. The more blessed I am...the more petty my problems become...isn't it ridiculous? I'm tired of feeling the way that I am, especially when there were so many before me, who never even got the privileges that i receive today. Its time for me to let go of the petty shit. It only brings me down, and it doesn't really get me anywhere.

Instead of crying over it all..I am going to let it go. And Let God. I'm not going to be afraid. For as long as I walk this earth, I want my life to be more than striving to be the most beautiful, fit, and attractive girl. I want it to be more than being the most popular, well-known, charismatic, and well-liked, And I want it to be more than my complaining that i'm lonely, and that i have no one...whatever K. It wont work anymore. Well...in fact..it never did. All the bitching and moaning, i'm still no better than how i was the day before, and the day before that. And mainly because these things should not be important. It's time for me to grow up. Even at 21..i've still yet to fall into the mind set of adulthood. Well, now i'm making it a priority.