Alright then!

I am beginning to realize that I am my own damn obstacle! Its quite funny you see. Because God seems to like to throw fireballs at my friends... got them running around like lunatics trying to stray away from getting themselves burned. So they run this way..thinking that the damn fire ain't gonna get them.. but the damn shit does! It always does..cause you can't mess with God. Little do they know that all they have to do is stop and pray for some healing water. ...Whatever..excuse my tangent. So, my friends and families seem to have things going on in their lives that is just straight up fucked up. You know? And it kinda sucks for them...I'm not gonna lie. Especially when that shit comes right at the prime of your life when you think that you are finally accomplishing something..and then you get a damn problem..and damn obstacle.

Lucky for me.. i've only faced a few... i'm sure there are more to come. But I have a feeling that God is sitting in his big platinum chair right now.. just chillin...and snickering at me. He can't give me any more damn problems.. because I create my own ones! I am beginning to realize that I truly am my own obstacle. I create these crazy ideas in my head..and I tell myself some bullshit..and I stray....far far..out of where I need to be. Well if I'll be damned! I don't know if whether i should stop so that I could finally allow myself to get ahead... or should I keep doing it...cause the problems I give myself...will never match up for the problems that are in store...Right? lol. Now how weird do you feel reading this entry? It can't be any more weird than I feel writing it.