UnFaItHfUl..?

Maybe I could use some guidance on this one. Not sure how I feel or where to go..Or even where to start when it comes to solving this huge problem..that i have so graciously bestowed upon myself.

So.you kno those one true loves. Those young loves that you get to experience while growing up? Your first kiss? The first person to ever say I love you..? That one person who will always have a piece of your heart, no matter where you go or what you do? Yes, well i guess in many reasons I can say that I have been blessed to be able to keep that one person in my life. Its a long story..and i'll try to spare you the ridiculous details. Lets just get straight to the point and say that I freakin kissed his best friend! Yes, I know..scandalous huh?

Now this would obviously come as a shock to most people who know me, and would ask why did I do it? Something about this almost seems justified to me. Maybe because I haven't been with anyone in a long time. Maybe because his friend made the first moves. Maybe because he has been with women in comparison to me with men, one for like 10:1. Maybe because i'm jealous. Maybe because we weren't together then. I dont kno... Like I said, its a long story...and since i'm not the one to go into details, i guess i'll just take the fall as the scandalous bitch who gets in between friends. damnn..well there's more to talk about with this situation.. but i'm just going to leave it at that. Right now, i kno that i was wrong for letting it happen, i kno that. But could that be a form of unfaithfulness? I guess that question needs the information that me and him were not talking at the time. But we are now..oh shit..this is so messed up...yuck

Damnnn