Mood Change....

Today is no especially a good day. I just feel fat. Very fat. And i feel worse cause i was doing so well until tonight when i had to go for the 'bad food'. It just sucks. Losing weight is such a long voyage. Its just as bad as waiting to see your bf after 2 months! Its so frustrating cause you just have to get through each day consistently. Waiting and waiting for the end of the time to come near.
I look back at all of these years that i've been overweight, and to come to the point where i am today, i'm just so upset that i have let myself get this far. This saturday is my first week weigh-in. I can only hope that atleast a pound was lost! I can hope.
But besides the weight loss, and the sudden burst of depression, I think i'm doing much better so far this semester than last. Last semester started off rough. With me missing classes in the first week, and consistently missing classes. I wouldn't even shower every day or brush my teeth or do my hair. I was much more content with staying in my room and locking the door to everyone.
I think this goal of weight loss has helped my spirits to arise. I have a plan that is acceptably possible. Even more, I'm just generally better at handling myself and managing my loneliness. I think I also have pinpointed some important emotional and mental issues and am learning how to define them on the spot, and then come up with a solution as well.
I think i'm going to be fine. Consistency is key.
night lov'